Deus Ex Machina

moonlight, serenades,

nightmares and razorblades.

infinity has gone and left its mark on me.

scarred hearts, open veins,

broken minds and broken brains.

we could have been twins but, no we cant do this again.

the battle of the underdogs,

whats the score, who hurts more when youre bleeding?

im losing time

im losing track of it all

but tell me, am i bleeding?

you have really left it all behind for me to find you bleeding?

i found you bleeding.

i said i would have gone with you

and we’d leave this all behind.

leave all these curses and cants,

no escape from the dark

and the bruises and marks we keep giving to ourselves

when were someone else

i cant feel my hands but i know theres someone there

holding us pushing us keeping us down

through all of these black clouds
and it keeps us there

on the other side of everywhere.

sleeping, releasing.

id like to stay here, id like to fade away.

it rains my clouds, it rains here everyday

to rain this pain away

and it gives me peace…

the tiniest glimpse of what i need.

like primal screams, these scarlet dreams

they bring me peace.

before the ground gives way and im forced to wake.

ive lost control of this big, black hole.

mistakes in the past are now dragging me back

through the cracks in my soul that are to old

to plaster, bandage or stitch,

im begining to itch

and im beginning to twitch and to flinch at my shadow.

becoming possessed and choking on halos of angels ive cursed,

profound

of trust

lust

boredom

fever

and layers upon layers of dust.

can you find

there,

on the otherside of everywhere?